A devotee opens his heart and surrenders to Him

A devotee, November 2016
I came to know about Guruji in year 2007 when I saw His swaroop on a colleague's desktop. Guruji is Lord Shiva in human form, my colleague said. I nodded in agreement and let it pass. Six years were to pass before I was to get another opportunity to connect with Him.

My wife and I had gone to Delhi airport to send off our relatives. One of them mentioned Guruji, His mantra and how He blesses His sangat. We were so intrigued that we went right from the airport to the Bade Mandir after taking verbal directions. I found no difficulty going through an unfamiliar route and didn't even stop in the way for directions—as if we knew the place already.

We reached Bade Mandir and no sooner had we entered that we felt calmness, tranquility and fragrance. Bade Mandir was heaven on earth. I immediately felt connected with Guruji and began chanting Guruji's mantra. We took jal prasad and sat at the Mandir grounds. We felt at peace and, before leaving, prayed to Guruji to call us back again. It was wonderful.

Guruji answered our prayer after some weeks. It was a Sunday afternoon—and the Mandir was open to devotees for sewa. I got an opportunity to clean the waiting area for devotees outside the hall. My wife also got engaged in sewa. After sewa we were given chai prasad. It was the first time we had it; it tasted like amrit. My wife had a severe migraine during sewa, which vanished after she had done it. This was remarkable, for her migraines typically last hours.

I lose and find faith

In year 2014, I was hospitalised for pneumonia and had to be put in intensive care. Doctors were not hopeful that I would be able to come out of it. As an act of faith, my wife rushed to Bade Mandir with my medical file and prayed to Guruji. She came back with Guruji's swaroop and with jal prasad. I drank the prasad and kept chanting Guruji's mantra. Within two days, I was shifted out of the ICU. Another four days later, I was home. All of us knew that it was Guruji's blessing that had healed me.

But our period of troubles was not over. Within three days of my discharge, my 10-year-old daughter caught pneumonia and was admitted to the same hospital, in the same room. Maybe the virus that had infected me had got her, too. We were heart-broken and in tears. It was a painful sight for us to see our daughter go through the pain and the treatment via a cannula. We prayed fervently to Guruji for her health, and she was discharged after four days.

Guruji gave strength to my wife during that month of November 2014, which was really traumatic. He kept our family intact and away from harm's way. We found that as we faced up to these tough times our faith in Guruji grew stronger.

Blessings in disguise

As year 2015 began, my job role changed. It involved a lot of international travel. Travelling caused health issues, which slowed me down. However, with Guruji's grace I was able to keep all my work commitments. I received a lot of praise from my superiors on my performance. I was graded as the best employee.

Imagine my surprise then that I was removed from the role. This was the biggest shock in my career. I was given a low-impact responsibility, which made it hard for me to justify my experience and contribution. I discussed it with HR and even my CEO, but did not get a conclusive response. I began looking out for another job, but knew it would take a long time.

But there was a positive side-effect. I now had time to take care of my deteriorating health by changing my lifestyle and my eating habits. But I could only recognize and, hence, accept this in hindsight. I am really thankful to Guruji for the way He took care of me during this time.

No matter what happens, Guruji is still in control. He won't fail those who put their trust in Him. He is constantly working behind the scenes on our behalf. Everything will become evident at right time. It doesn't matter how many times people have told you "no" or said that something is impossible. It takes one "yes" from Guruji, and He specializes in doing the impossible. Trust Guruji's timing. He is always working things out for our good, even when we can't see it. He connects with us in our daily lives and is always present to give us His blessings. All we have to do is shukrana. Gratitude makes it possible for us to reaffirm His power and presence in our lives.

The following prayer really works for me and cleanses me of all my doubts and negative feelings.

A prayer of surrender

GURUJI, it is my will to surrender to You everything that I am and everything that I'm striving to be;
GURUJI, I open the deepest recesses of my heart to You and invite Your presence to dwell inside me;
GURUJI, I surrender to You my life, my heart, my mind, my body, my soul, my spirit, all my hopes, my plans and my dreams;
GURUJI, I surrender to You my past, my present and my future, all my problems, my job, my habits, my character, my finances, and all my relationships;
GURUJI, I surrender to You my health, my disabilities, my physical appearance, my home, my family, my marriage, my children, and my friendships;
GURUJI, I ask You to take Lordship over every aspect of my life;
GURUJI, I surrender to You all my hurt, my pain, my worry, my anxiety and fear, and I ask You to wash me clean;
GURUJI, I release everything into Your compassionate care; please speak to me clearly.

GURUJI, Open my ears to hear Your voice, open my heart to commune with You more deeply;
GURUJI, I desperately need to feel Your loving embrace;
GURUJI, Shut the doors that need to be closed and open those that need opening;
GURUJI, Set my feet upon the straight and narrow road that leads to everlasting life;
GURUJI, You promised that when I seek You with all our heart, I will find You—I seek You alone.

Still my troubled heart,
Calm my wayward mind,
I seek You alone.

I'm never going to be able to figure this out on my own,
And right now I'm leaning heavily on You,

Still my troubled heart,
Calm my wayward mind.
I seek You alone:
I await Your voice;
I await Your command.


A devotee

November 2016